I always thought of myself as reliable and true to my word. If I say I’m going to do something for someone- whether it’s as simple as a phone call or an errand to run, or a task to complete, I get it done. And if for some reason I fall a bit behind schedule, I do the responsible thing and let the person know. But I don’t give up on the task. I just set a new deadline. Either way, it almost always gets finished. This is because the job or friends or people for whom I am getting these jobs or errands or favors done are important to me.
So why is it that I don’t always place the same value or give as much commitment to myself? Why is it that when given the choice to get something done for someone else rather than something I promised I would get done for myself, I choose the other person first? Why is it easier to keep promises to others and not to ourselves?
My mom always tells me to protect my “little dancer”. I have a picture of me when I was three years old, in my little tutu, and it’s important for me to protect her, to protect that girl. I think that can be really hard when you walk into a really cut-throat business. It’s not necessarily the people that are cut-throat, but the business is. You have to be the best you can be. You have to be your best you at every audition, at every opening, at every huge gathering and get together.You have to be your best self and in order to be that or do that, you have to BELIEVE in your best self, I think. – Mary Antonini